Nothing Comes Easy!

I should have known then, when Kaz decided to show up unexpected that May day at 9 weeks pre-term! Things haven't been at all predictable or planned from his first breath and very little has changed since. However, one thing I know for sure.... No matter how many road blocks we hit, there's always an answer that keeps us going ~ Never a dead-end!

I was naturally wired to be a "planner" and "multi-tasker"... to have it all together! Except one thing I hadn't learned yet - that's impossible. When life is involved, this element of perfection somehow evaporates. For so long I've enjoyed control and the micro-managing of life, however I'm so glad I've finally been broken of that habit to see that I can't control this crazy world.

Initially when we started this surgery journey, I was excited to the extreme after finding out that Kaz was a candidate, considering it is such a wonderful opportunity for him and our family! Then all the paperwork, evaluations, possibility of therapy not being covered through insurance, more paperwork, phone calls, new braces before surgery, booking the hotel, where can I find a wheelchair?! All of these questions and more along with my usual worries begin to creep up in my mind....

Then, after three days of high blood-pressure and trying to forcefully "mama bear" take control of the situation, I put on my best face and said one prayer for my son and for God to be right in the middle of it all.

Once again, I was quickly reminded...

"Do not worry. Learn to pray about everything. Give thanks to God as you ask Him for what you need. The peace of God is much greater than the human mind can understand. This peace will keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus." ~ Philippians 4:6-7